How to fold a shirt. The best way to fall in a river. Sharing a waffle. What “friends” means. Knowing it’s only a month. Talking to a sleeping person. Saying goodbye and thinking it’s forever. Crying even though you’re not twelve anymore. Going home.
Calling again. Things you can get away with in the middle of Central Park at noon. Ways to get to New York City every weekend. The first poem you ever wrote for someone. How to draw a butterfly. Writing letters worth reading. Sending them. Things being different. Things being special.
Sleeping together without sleeping together. Giving presents. Getting them. How to have nice things and not feel bad about it. Sleeping together. Saying I love you. Meaning it. Realizing it’s OK to leave your friends when there’s someone you’d rather be with.
Missing her. Texting every day. Calling sometimes. Learning to talk about nothing, just to hear that voice. Going to see her. What you can do under a coat on a train, but probably shouldn’t. Being naked sometimes. What it’s like not to be embarrassed. Meeting her friends. Leaving. Missing her again.
Going back. The right way to wear a tuxedo. Meeting her parents. Feeling old, but in a good way. Just feeling old. Things being the same. Worrying about it.
Things being different. Not meaning it anymore. Thinking about other people. Deciding to answer the phone. No longer wanting to. Going to see her. Saying goodbye and knowing it’s forever. Crying even though you’re not twelve anymore. Going home.
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